Regrets

I don't want to live with regrets. I used to look back on everything I screwed up on all the time. Now, I just live life freely. Nothing to worry about, because I know I messed up and why go back on the past like that? No need at all, love. It's a pointless thing, regret.

A Great Escape-Treasures and Junk

Treasures and Junk has the best and largest selection of antique things that I've ever seen, and it's the perfect getaway from the rest of the world. In fact, today I purchased a few aged photographs. 5/5 ☆☆☆☆☆

Birds Set Free-Dalton Rapattoni

Goodness, I died. Salty Dalty's performance was breathtaking. As always, it made me feel something, tonight especially more than ever with that Sia number. And when he got choked up at the end, I nearly fell of the couch crying. What a joke my life is.

Mental Health: Books: Beautiful

Now, if you're looking for a book that will uplift and edify your soul, I'm warning you, this is not the one for you. In fact, it's rather depressing, especially near the end, with the slightest glimpse of hope. And that's just the way I like it. "Beautiful" by Amy Reed has become one of the staple novels that I keep coming back to. And I assume most other teens out there will be able to relate to the happenings in this book. Cassie, the main character, is in the seventh grade. She's just moved, and is at a new school. However, with new friends comes new experiences, leading into a downward spiral of sex, drugs, violence, abuse, and depression, not to mention all the family issues you could ever possibly need. The way the book was written, I felt truly connected to Cassia and how she was feeling at every moment, the way it feels to be on drugs, detached. It was fascinating for sure. I greedily finished the book within an hour and a half or perhaps two. Although it's not going to have you cured of any mental health issues, by any means, it does give you a taste of a life that could be, once was, is, your own life, or somebody else's that you feel like you know inside and out. The ending is gloomy but gives a teeny bit of hope for Cassie, and I couldn't have been more satisfied. Five stars all around! ☆☆☆☆☆

Confidence: Books:how to be brave

The novel "how to be brave" by E. Katherine Kottaras is a great read for boosting confidence. The main character, Georgia, was told by her late mother to do everything, be brave. And so Georgia makes a list of things to accomplish in her senior year of high school, and she goes from there. It's a great book about a teenager struggling with insecurities and trying to find her confidence. From the first page, I knew I loved it, and the last didn't disappoint either. Overall, a great novel that I will no doubt read time and time again, and will surely buy sometime in the near future. And that is the highest compliment I can give, really. Five stars! ☆☆☆☆☆

I Stopped Taking My Antidepressants

I've been on fluoxetine since October. But then my psychiatrist moved offices and since he can't prescribe me anything more, I've run entirely out of stock of my antidepressants. And now my depression's back in full force. And here I was, thinking I was cured, that I was alright. I feel weak, knowing the only thing keeping me from sadness is a little pill. I now remember how crippling it is. I woke up this morning wanting to stay in bed all day,no interest in eating, wanting to cry at having to do my schoolwork at all. Everything seems to be too much. I cried last week, too, at the slightest thing. And I shook it off as post-period feels...until now, and I connect it with my withdrawal of a month, give or take. Not only did it help with my depression, it completely obliterated my bulimia. After a few weeks on it, I kinda trickled off with my habits, and then it suddenly stopped. No more throwing up. Not even an urge to stick that tricky finger down my throat. Just like that, like a light switch. And I was contemplating it all spring break. Oh, goodness. I'm a mess again. I thought I was alright, and now this. I just want to sit in the dark beneath my sheets forever, just sit there. Be alone. It hurts to know that I can't conquer my demons on my own, that I need medication to wash it away. I don't think I can handle anymore of this without my medication. I'm bursting into tears as I type this, the tears blurring my vision, making all these typed lines blur together. Goodness, I need more medication.....or at least something to take my mind off everything. Some Lush. Something.

Girl Power: Literature: A Girl Called Fearless

"A Girl Called Fearless", a book by Catherine Linka, is about a particular teenage girl trying to get back her own independence and freedom in a dystopian world ruled by men who are oppressing the slowly dwindling female population. It's a great read for anybody looking to feel empowered in themselves, although near the end it starts to get a little dull. However, I loved the fact that it shows a world in the very near future, a place that could be our world soon. It's scary to think that girls could have all basic rights taken away. It really does make you think. 4/5 star rating. ☆☆☆☆